Right after I posted my last blog, I got hit hard with what I now know was a fibromyalgia flare. At the time, I was terrified it was a Wegener’s flare. They mimic one another, so it can be tough to decipher which is which. After a bunch of blood tests, and doctors appointments, I’m relieved that my Wegener’s seems to be fine for now, and it’s “just” a fibro flare. Isn’t that awful? Anyone with fibro knows how awful a flare is. It’s hard to fathom being relieved that’s what you’re having. Ah, life. You’re a strange one indeed. 

I’ve been resting, taking a vitamin D pill once a week, and trying to deal with the pain. This next few sentences sounds mean, but I’m frustrated. Because of opioid abusers, I’m being forced to wean down on the pain meds that help me tolerate the excruciating pain I’m constantly in. If I never had to take another pill again, I’d love it. However, my pain is so high, the other ways to deal with pain are near impossible to do. I can’t sleep, exercise, and the pain causes me to not feel like me normal cheerie self. So frustrating. I feel like I’m being punished for the way others abuse the med, when I have never abused it.  It really angers me.  Okay, rant over.  

My goal is to push through the pain and extreme fatigue and post weekly. I hope I can. I really want to.  Thanks for your patience.