I’ve attempted to write this at least a dozen times this week. It all comes out jumbled. I have so much to say, and so many topics to touch on.  It’s hard when dealing with brain fog. I lose words. I can’t remember what I’m talking about if sentence. I hate it. I don’t like feeling dumb. I know that people understand, but still it’s very difficult for me. I am doing my best to remember this is just temporary. I need to rest, let the chemo work, and be positive. Why can’t I rest on a beach with a Mai Tai?